This music came to be throughout my time living in Boston, MA as a graduate student of music education, when I would sit down at the piano almost daily to improvise. This became a therapeutic ritual during which I would ring myself out of waters dirtied by navigating uncertain personal and professional footings, and becoming evermore enraged by social justice issues that are almost completely ignored in the field of music education; and the more I learn, the White supremacist world at large. Inevitably certain musical themes returned as I played, and the more they did, the more they evolved individually, then together, as somewhat of a cohort of ideas that started to blend, transform, and eventually dialogue.
Before recording with Alex and Greg in June of 2020, I asked myself a few questions. “Is this work still relevant to me, being several years old now?” “Is this work relevant to the world now, in a global pandemic and a unique movement for racial justice?” My thinking is that while I have personally recovered from the particular emotional state I was in while composing, I am currently sensing a similar depressed, contemplative, frustrated energy whenever I check my phone or go to the store. And it re-emerges in myself in response to what I imagine so many others in the world must be feeling.
While I originally composed this piece through a process of self-care, and for the purpose of self-expression, my new hope is that this "soundtrack" is ambient, but suggestive enough to allow listeners to more fully interpret and situate their own experiences similar to what I have just described. Perhaps through these processes we can better imagine taking our next steps, either for ourselves or our shared humanity.
Gregory Mahan: Audio and Mastering Engineer
Alexander Thomas: Piano
Nicholas Patrick Quigley: Composer
Released on July 17, 2020.
Available wherever you usually listen to music, including Apple Music, Bandcamp, and Spotify.